in my quest for good questions to ask myself & to answer of myself, i came across this question in one of my old lessons for the teen girls at our church, & it struck me as appropriate to ponder on during this time of lent, a time of remembrance, repentance, & return.
why do we often wait so long to repent & return to God after we’ve sinned?
the context of this question in my lesson is the parable of the prodigal son. why did it take him so long to “come to his senses” before he returned home to his father?
in my life, the answer usually depends on whether i want to return or not… sometimes i’m still enjoying myself to much in the pit & i may not even realize how i’ve sunk & how filthy dirty i am. but sometimes i’m just so ashamed of where i’ve been that i can’t manage to turn my face upward to God. i might even be too angry at myself to imagine a loving response from God. or perhaps i’m too entrenched in the habit of my sin & godlessness that it’s too much work to turn around & journey home to Him. usually, it’s not a cut & dry answer but some combination of these.
i think there are as many answers as there are people & as seasons of sinfulness…
i’d really like to hear your answers! it would be ever so helpful to me.
what makes you put off repentance?